Friday can't come soon enough!

My grumps continue! Ah – roll on the weekend and a couple of days when I don’t have to interact with people!! I think I have simply just over-socialised. Basically, I was out two evenings this week with friends and had lunch with another and the office has been particularly quiet and oppressive this week, so my colleagues and I have resorted to chatting even more than usual. That’s not a complaint about the socialising, as it was fab to see my friends, but this eve I have the hairdressers and I really don’t want to go. I can’t cancel as I did it a few weeks ago (and was chastised by the guy who answered the phone as he ‘could have given the slot away had I called earlier’ – ffs!!) so I am honour-bound to go. My hairdresser is lovely and not overly chatty, but she really takes her time to get it right and as such, it takes up to an hour and a half to do. Love the fact I am getting my money’s worth and a fantastic cut, but when all I want to do is go home, curl up with K on the sofa and be totally anti-social, a trendy, pumping salon in Soho is the last place I fancy!

Maybe being 100% sober, 24/7 is harder work than I imagined. Not only is everything crystal clear but things I may have just accepted before (and gone with the flow) now seem more challenging and demanding of me. Whilst I am doing more and definitely driving things forward (rather than waiting for events to unfurl) such as the wedding, I am also more inclined to get annoyed about the stuff I don’t want to do but have to. I got massively irritated today about some work I was asked to do, which I suspect I would have just got on with, without complaint, in times gone by. I also get very frustrated when people ask me too much about stuff and press for details, or even suggest I do something that I hadn’t planned to do. I almost feel violated by questions and requests when, in the past, I would have been so damn cheerful about stuff and compliant.

I don’t want to turn into a female Victor Meldrew, though! I need to manage my stresses, so I persuaded my friend G to try a yoga class with me next Saturday. I am hoping it will do her the world of good too, as she is manically busy at the moment. I haven’t done yoga for years (last time I did a class I was at uni) but I know from experience that it made me calmer and happier. I like to think that these days when I identify a problem, I also now try to find a solution, rather than letting problems either get on top of me (as I did before) or get swept under the carpet (as I also did before. Bad Ilona!!). As such, I think a run is definitely in order for me this weekend, as that too helps me ‘pound out’ my frustrations. Bring it on!